Hello! My name is Randy Creamer and I’m dying. 

Oh, maybe not today or tomorrow, but someday. I happen to have heart disease of a physical nature. CAD, coronary artery disease. My dad had it and now I have it. 

You may also have some type of physical ailment, or you may suffer from another kind of heart disease. You may be dying inside because of such things as: 


  • Childhood trauma
  • Poor self esteem
  • Unforgiveness
  • Worry about financial loss
  • Bitterness and resentment
  • Depression
  • Grief

If you, or someone you know, suffer from any of these signs, then this blog is for you.

Remember in the movie Shawshank Redemption, when Andy and Red were having a discussion about life, on a bench in the prison yard?


Andy says, “I guess it comes down to a simple choice, really. Get busy living or get busy dying." Well, I have decided to get busy living!

However, in my line of work, I notice a lot of people who seem to be living with regrets, missed opportunities and hopelessness. People live diminished lives, stuck in a routine of “doing life”; they are not really living life, but just trying to avoid dying. I say, let us live our lives as if it were our very first day AND our last day!

There is, of course, a literal prison as in Shawshank, and then there is the prison made with emotional bars and chains. You may be suffering from past hurts, poor self-image, deep sadness, or from some form of abuse.

Maybe you have an addiction to a substance, to a person, to perfectionism, to work, or even to pleasure. All of these things can be forms of imprisonment.

“As I walked out the door toward the gate that would lead to my freedom, I knew if I didn’t leave my bitterness and hatred behind, I’d still be in prison.” -Nelson Mandela

Ecclesiastes 3:1-3 says, “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the sun: 

  • A time to be born and a time to die.
  • A time to plant and a time to uproot
  • A time to kill and a time to heal
  • A time to tear down and a time to build
  • A time to weep and a time to laugh
  • A time to mourn and a time to dance."

Regardless of the season you find yourself in, I want to introduce the possibility that this can be the time to heal for you.

Why am I blogging?
What is my purpose, my Why?
It is to reach out to you and enter into a discussion about your particular pain, the prison you find yourself in, and then to equip you with practical tools that will “give you hope and a future."